Saturday, December 20
Disappointment
OK, so I didn't win anything in the Guardian's 2003 Blog Awards, but I'll struggle on regardless. There's always next year.
Another lazy Saturday for me, not doing anything of any note. Went to my Granddad's with my Mum and sister, did fuck-all there, excpet getting bored. It's very easy to get bored at my Granddad's house, because it's, well, boring. I hope I don't become really, really boring when I get older. That's assuming that I'm not boring now, of course, something which I find myself doubting on a daily basis.
I might seem a bit boring to some people, but it's just the way I am. I'm quite happy to spend hours on my computer, not really achieving anything, and I'm not always up for going out drinking as often as many of my housemates are. It's not that I don't enjoy going out with them and having a good time, but just that sometimes I can't always see the attraction. My finances are always in too much of a state to properly enjoy a night out. I either go out without much money and don't have as good a time, or I go out and spend a shitload, then regret it for about a week after, not even including the hangover...
Fuck it, I am a boring cunt, aren't I? I prefer my own company to being in a group most of the time; I'm not a huge fan of talking on the phone, and always seem to be really short with people when I speak to them in that way; I'm not brilliant at talking to and meeting new people, especially if they are female and attractive; I always have a depressed period when I'm out for a night, generally when I realise that I am still single and don't have the balls to do anything about it. I am one boring person.
Sorry, just sitting here, writing this and thinking about it, I really, really am boring. I try to be enthusiastic about many things, but if I don't have an interest in a subject or topic, then I almost completely ignore it and am really short / clipped when the conversation turns to it. I'm fucking self-centred as well, I guess that means. I am a fucking crap person to be around. Do yourself a favour and don't bother talking to me if you ever meet me. I'm bound to be rude and boring.
