Monday, April 4
The Blog Is DeadLong Live The Blog!
This is the final post on Honestly I'm Sober.
After a lot of consideration and some deep thinking, I have decided to stop writing on this blog completely. There will be no more posts on this blog. Ever.
I have kept this blog for more than two years, and during that time I have been able to express myself in a manner that I could never have foreseen when I wrote that first post.
Unfortunately, the blog has also caused me numerous problems in my life, most notably the recent series of events with my parents. For those that are interested or concerned, that situation has been resolved, but I feel that a slight schism has been created, and will linger for a good while yet.
I fully realise that it is my own openness both on this blog and when discussing it with other people that creates these problems. I know now that I should never have told anyone whom I know in the 'real' world about this blog, because as soon as that happens both my writing and our friendships are compromised. I was unable to write as I would have liked, and the material that I did manage to publish here sometimes caused friction, and even led to big arguments.
There have of course been many, many positives to take from the experience of writing this blog. I feel that I have developed a writing style that I am very proud of; I have developed the ability to understand my feelings and explore them properly; I have tried different methods of writing, such as streams of consciousness and more measured, drafted tones; I have been able to relive some great events in my life simply by writing about them; I now notice hundreds of details about everyone I see and everywhere I go, purely because I am setting myself up to write about them; I have made some great new email friends; I have discovered numerous fantastic blogs across the globe; I was able to design, redesign and redesign again the layout, improving my web-authoring skills; I bought my own dotcom address; I had fun.
The last is the most important. I thoroughly enjoyed my writing here, because it was a release, it was different, it was entertaining, and it got a response. Admittedly, so many responses were of the classic 'fuck you' variety, but so be it. Morons exist on the internet, just as they do on the streets.
To all of you who left me messages or emailed me, be they positive or negative, I thank you. I didn't initially write to receive responses, but they helped me keep going whenever I felt my enthusiasm lacking.
It is because I enjoyed doing the actual writing so much that I am certain that I will continue to publish material on this website. Honestly, I'm Sober may be dead, but gooneruk.com is yet to be born. I probably won't be writing a blog of this style, but I will be writing about a whole host of other subjects, and whatever else takes my fancy. I have too many ideas and half-written opening paragraphs floating around in my head to not keep up a written presence on this website.
No doubt I will start another blog which will be along the lines of this one, but it will be elsewhere and totally anonymous. I may need to write there from time to time. If you desperately want to keep reading, email me and I'll let you know where it is.
I wish that I could come up with a final line to put here. Something witty, thoughtful, insightful, and guaranteed to stick in the memory.